My Mission

My Mission

My Mission

I am a woman with a mission

And that mission is to share what I know, to share my understanding of manifesting, to share my perspective.

You may agree, you may disagree.
You may like it, you may hate it.
My suggestion: take what works, 😉

That, by the way, is my belief system in a nut shell:

Effectiveness is my preferred measure of truth.
Do more of what works!

I do not share my thoughts to make you change your mind about anything. I share my thoughts because they help me get clearer on my beliefs, and because when I come back next time, I want those  truths to be out there, and not spend 20 years looking for them – again.

Yeah, I’m only half joking there.

It’s hard to put any of this into words without sounding a bit arrogant, because yes, I believe my perspective to be unique.

Of course, there will be others who hold the exact same beliefs. I mean, there are eight billion people in this world, I’m not that unique, 😁.

But while I have seen people with similar approaches – and people who implement my same conclusions – I have yet to meet people who have arrived at those conclusions logically and sensibly; who understand why manifesting works, other than knowing that it works.

I know that manifesting works, and I understand how manifesting works – because I have made it my life’s purpose to find out.

And now I have fulfilled that purpose.

And it would be a shame to be silent about it. Because, no matter how quaint you believe this to be, I really do not want to spend my next life looking for those same answers. Next time around I want to find them pretty early on and just use those answers and insights to have a delightful life.

Which is why I’m putting my views out there.

Which is a fairly recent thing, because I have struggled with ‘talking about these things’ for most of my adult life. Having been burnt at the stake for my knowledge, imprisoned, hanged – anything to shut me up – has left its imprint to the point where I have long honoured my vow of some lifetimes ago, to never speak my truth again – cos it invariably got me killed.

But that was then.

The world is a different place now. Women can speak. Spirituality is mainstream. The power of thoughts has been well-established. In this lifetime I hold myself safe to express.

And so I do, 😊. And this is just the beginning!

So here’s a little backdrop:

In this lifetime I was in my early thirties when something happened that made me reevaluate my understanding of purpose. And I have since been on a quest to understand manifesting. It’s kinda weird, because in the course of that quest I completely changed quadrants – which is an expression I’ll explain in a minute.

The journey I have been on in this lifetime has been one of exploring, questioning, questing.
Being clear-knowing, certain things have always been, well, clear to me. But my conscious mind wasn’t always able to embrace it.
My head had to understand. Just knowing wasn’t enough, I had to also know why, how.
My spiritual peers were eager to equate my hunger for understanding with ego, or even look down upon it as an inferior trait; one should wish to ‘go with the flow, surrender to what is’, and nothing more. “Not everything can be understood,” they said.

I didn’t agree. Also, that concept holds no appeal for me. I want to choose – and I wanted to know that I could.

So I stumbled on the Authority Matrix. Or rather I created it, after I understood there are four quadrants people can be placed in according to their belief system.

The quadrants are based on Passive vs Active Choice and Internal vs External Authority and, depending on when you read this, the article may have been posted somewhere on this website. At the moment of me writing this, early 2024, it is back in my personal library, awaiting an audit.

Short version: when I say I have completely changed quadrants, I mean that I have gone from “Believing God could and would guide me, if I but learned to hear him” (external authority; passive choice) to not believing in any kind of external authority: I believe in deliberate (active) choice – which requires internal authority.

As it happens, when it comes to Authority, most people apply some kind of mix ‘n’ match, where they feel they are in charge, yet they wait for the universe to get its ducks in a row.

Or they set the general direction for something, but then they leave the specifics to the universe, interpreting its output as a sign that tells them whether they should or shouldn’t continue in that direction.

I’m not saying that is good or bad, it’s a belief system. What is bad – in the sense of ineffective – is a mix ‘n’ match. You have to try to be as ‘singular’ as possible, to put all of your eggs in one basket, and not mix systems.

And that’s what I’ve done for me. I have gone from wanting to be in service to god (External, passive) to not believing there is a god. What’s more, I don’t believe the universe has an agenda.

In my quest I’ve touched everything in between, so I know just how deeply rooted certain convictions can be – or how utterly unaware we may be of said convictions. Especially when we don’t realise just how much it matters.

And I’ll be the first to admit: mine is just another belief system; mine is the one that holds true that our thoughts shape our reality – and not just our experience of it, but the actual events in it. But I acknowledge that holding this true is just as arbitrary as it is to hold any other true, whether it contains God, the Universe or nothingness.

At the end of the day all systems are arbitrary. For me, the choice for a system hinges on just one thing: how effective is it? Which means I occasionally even deliberately embrace truths that my head knows are untrue, simply because they work. And if it works, it works! By the same token I deliberately deny things that my head holds true, because my spiritual self reminds me it’s an ineffective truth to nurture. So I focus on a better truth instead. Deliberate Denial, I call that.

Once I arrived at the point where I realised that all systems are arbitrary, which is about 20 years ago, I realised that – for me – holding true that an external god monitored my movements – and punished me for whatever he deemed wrong, without explicitly making his wishes known, seemed so ineffective that from one moment to the next I decided I no longer wanted to hold his existence true. To spend the rest of my life second guessing a deity held no appeal to me.

To eradicate him from my convictions took a lot longer (most of those twenty years! our society is steeped in external belief, fate-beliefs, and superstitions, and as an HSP-empath I just pick up on many of those subconsciously). But in my early fifties I reached the pivot point where ‘the bulk of my thoughts’ was, at last, in one carefully chosen basket. I continue to add ‘the rest of my thoughts’ to that basket as they occur.

I still catch myself with thoughts that don’t belong in my basket, but these days I am quick to recognise them, and then I choose a different thought, a better one, a more effective one.

I won’t pretend it’s simple. It’s been a complex journey. Mostly because all belief systems work. That which we hold true, is what is true for us. And so if you believe in God, God is real for you. That has nothing to do with him existing or not. More to the point, so many people do believe in a higher power, that God is actually as real as Santa Claus: they both have a lot of power over other people – though Santa mostly just over kids; but then, there comes a point where people tell their children that Santa is made up; for God that point typically never arrives, and so people continue to give him their power well into adulthood, or even their entire lives. And I mean that quite literally: god is this powerful because people give him their power; they have expectations in his name; they demand things in his name. He might as well be real, for all the things that are attributed him. He is, indeed, omnipotent. But that doesn’t make him any less man-made than Santa.

Now, this isn’t me taking a dig at anyone’s religion; this is me sharing my perspective: something is real if you hold it true and if you hold god true, then he is real, at least for you. I do not hold him true; I also do not hold true that the universe has a plan for me. It may have. And if you do believe the universe has a plan for you, you can know that plan. I will neither mock you nor try to talk you out of it. But I would have my explanation – and that explanation would serve me, but not necessarily you. Which brings us back to my main premise: that for me a belief has to be effective, because if it isn’t, it’s pointless. And so if something works for you, then why would I want to mess with that? I’m neither a jerk, nor do I need you to believe what I believe.

Having said that, this is my life, and I talk about these things, so if you hang with me while you want your belief in God or the Universe to work for you, then be aware of spoilers. Literally: thoughts I share that to you may sound so reasonable that they actually jeopardise your faith in God, or the universe. So don’t say I didn’t warn you, enter at your own risk, 😉

 

I am a woman with a mission

And that mission is to share what I know, to share my understanding of manifesting, to share my perspective.

You may agree, you may disagree.
You may like it, you may hate it.
My suggestion: take what works, 😉

That, by the way, is my belief system in a nut shell:

Effectiveness is my preferred measure of truth.
Do more of what works!

I do not share my thoughts to make you change your mind about anything. I share my thoughts because they help me get clearer on my beliefs, and because when I come back next time, I want those  truths to be out there, and not spend 20 years looking for them – again.

Yeah, I’m only half joking there.

It’s hard to put any of this into words without sounding a bit arrogant, because yes, I believe my perspective to be unique.

Of course, there will be others who hold the exact same beliefs. I mean, there are eight billion people in this world, I’m not that unique, 😁.

But while I have seen people with similar approaches – and people who implement my same conclusions – I have yet to meet people who have arrived at those conclusions logically and sensibly; who understand why manifesting works, other than knowing that it works.

I know that manifesting works, and I understand how manifesting works – because I have made it my life’s purpose to find out.

And now I have fulfilled that purpose.

And it would be a shame to be silent about it. Because, no matter how quaint you believe this to be, I really do not want to spend my next life looking for those same answers. Next time around I want to find them pretty early on and just use those answers and insights to have a delightful life.

Which is why I’m putting my views out there.

Which is a fairly recent thing, because I have struggled with ‘talking about these things’ for most of my adult life. Having been burnt at the stake for my knowledge, imprisoned, hanged – anything to shut me up – has left its imprint to the point where I have long honoured my vow of some lifetimes ago, to never speak my truth again – cos it invariably got me killed.

But that was then.

The world is a different place now. Women can speak. Spirituality is mainstream. The power of thoughts has been well-established. In this lifetime I hold myself safe to express.

And so I do, 😊. And this is just the beginning!

So here’s a little backdrop:

In this lifetime I was in my early thirties when something happened that made me reevaluate my understanding of purpose. And I have since been on a quest to understand manifesting. It’s kinda weird, because in the course of that quest I completely changed quadrants – which is an expression I’ll explain in a minute.

The journey I have been on in this lifetime has been one of exploring, questioning, questing.
Being clear-knowing, certain things have always been, well, clear to me. But my conscious mind wasn’t always able to embrace it.
My head had to understand. Just knowing wasn’t enough, I had to also know why, how.
My spiritual peers were eager to equate my hunger for understanding with ego, or even look down upon it as an inferior trait; one should wish to ‘go with the flow, surrender to what is’, and nothing more. “Not everything can be understood,” they said.

I didn’t agree. Also, that concept holds no appeal for me. I want to choose – and I wanted to know that I could.

So I stumbled on the Authority Matrix. Or rather I created it, after I understood there are four quadrants people can be placed in according to their belief system.

The quadrants are based on Passive vs Active Choice and Internal vs External Authority and, depending on when you read this, the article may have been posted somewhere on this website. At the moment of me writing this, early 2024, it is back in my personal library, awaiting an audit.

Short version: when I say I have completely changed quadrants, I mean that I have gone from “Believing God could and would guide me, if I but learned to hear him” (external authority; passive choice) to not believing in any kind of external authority: I believe in deliberate (active) choice – which requires internal authority.

As it happens, when it comes to Authority, most people apply some kind of mix ‘n’ match, where they feel they are in charge, yet they wait for the universe to get its ducks in a row.

Or they set the general direction for something, but then they leave the specifics to the universe, interpreting its output as a sign that tells them whether they should or shouldn’t continue in that direction.

I’m not saying that is good or bad, it’s a belief system. What is bad – in the sense of ineffective – is a mix ‘n’ match. You have to try to be as ‘singular’ as possible, to put all of your eggs in one basket, and not mix systems.

And that’s what I’ve done for me. I have gone from wanting to be in service to god (External, passive) to not believing there is a god. What’s more, I don’t believe the universe has an agenda.

In my quest I’ve touched everything in between, so I know just how deeply rooted certain convictions can be – or how utterly unaware we may be of said convictions. Especially when we don’t realise just how much it matters.

And I’ll be the first to admit: mine is just another belief system; mine is the one that holds true that our thoughts shape our reality – and not just our experience of it, but the actual events in it. But I acknowledge that holding this true is just as arbitrary as it is to hold any other true, whether it contains God, the Universe or nothingness.

At the end of the day all systems are arbitrary. For me, the choice for a system hinges on just one thing: how effective is it? Which means I occasionally even deliberately embrace truths that my head knows are untrue, simply because they work. And if it works, it works! By the same token I deliberately deny things that my head holds true, because my spiritual self reminds me it’s an ineffective truth to nurture. So I focus on a better truth instead. Deliberate Denial, I call that.

Once I arrived at the point where I realised that all systems are arbitrary, which is about 20 years ago, I realised that – for me – holding true that an external god monitored my movements – and punished me for whatever he deemed wrong, without explicitly making his wishes known, seemed so ineffective that from one moment to the next I decided I no longer wanted to hold his existence true. To spend the rest of my life second guessing a deity held no appeal to me.

To eradicate him from my convictions took a lot longer (most of those twenty years! our society is steeped in external belief, fate-beliefs, and superstitions, and as an HSP-empath I just pick up on many of those subconsciously). But in my early fifties I reached the pivot point where ‘the bulk of my thoughts’ was, at last, in one carefully chosen basket. I continue to add ‘the rest of my thoughts’ to that basket as they occur.

I still catch myself with thoughts that don’t belong in my basket, but these days I am quick to recognise them, and then I choose a different thought, a better one, a more effective one.

I won’t pretend it’s simple. It’s been a complex journey. Mostly because all belief systems work. That which we hold true, is what is true for us. And so if you believe in God, God is real for you. That has nothing to do with him existing or not. More to the point, so many people do believe in a higher power, that God is actually as real as Santa Claus: they both have a lot of power over other people – though Santa mostly just over kids; but then, there comes a point where people tell their children that Santa is made up; for God that point typically never arrives, and so people continue to give him their power well into adulthood, or even their entire lives. And I mean that quite literally: god is this powerful because people give him their power; they have expectations in his name; they demand things in his name. He might as well be real, for all the things that are attributed him. He is, indeed, omnipotent. But that doesn’t make him any less man-made than Santa.

Now, this isn’t me taking a dig at anyone’s religion; this is me sharing my perspective: something is real if you hold it true and if you hold god true, then he is real, at least for you. I do not hold him true; I also do not hold true that the universe has a plan for me. It may have. And if you do believe the universe has a plan for you, you can know that plan. I will neither mock you nor try to talk you out of it. But I would have my explanation – and that explanation would serve me, but not necessarily you. Which brings us back to my main premise: that for me a belief has to be effective, because if it isn’t, it’s pointless. And so if something works for you, then why would I want to mess with that? I’m neither a jerk, nor do I need you to believe what I believe.

Having said that, this is my life, and I talk about these things, so if you hang with me while you want your belief in God or the Universe to work for you, then be aware of spoilers. Literally: thoughts I share that to you may sound so reasonable that they actually jeopardise your faith in God, or the universe. So don’t say I didn’t warn you, enter at your own risk, 😉

I am a woman with a mission

And that mission is to share what I know, to share my understanding of manifesting, to share my perspective.

You may agree, you may disagree.
You may like it, you may hate it.
My suggestion: take what works, 😉

That, by the way, is my belief system in a nut shell:

Effectiveness is my preferred measure of truth. Do more of what works!

I do not share my thoughts to make you change your mind about anything. I share my thoughts because they help me get clearer on my beliefs, and because when I come back next time, I want those  truths to be out there, and not spend 20 years looking for them – again.

Yeah, I’m only half joking there.

It’s hard to put any of this into words without sounding a bit arrogant, because yes, I believe my perspective to be unique.

Of course, there will be others who hold the exact same beliefs. I mean, there are eight billion people in this world, I’m not that unique, 😁.

But while I have seen people with similar approaches – and people who implement my same conclusions – I have yet to meet people who have arrived at those conclusions logically and sensibly; who understand why manifesting works, other than knowing that it works.

I know that manifesting works, and I understand how manifesting works – because I have made it my life’s purpose to find out.

And now I have fulfilled that purpose.

And it would be a shame to be silent about it. Because, no matter how quaint you believe this to be, I really do not want to spend my next life looking for those same answers. Next time around I want to find them pretty early on and just use those answers and insights to have a delightful life.

Which is why I’m putting my views out there.

Which is a fairly recent thing, because I have struggled with ‘talking about these things’ for most of my adult life. Having been burnt at the stake for my knowledge, imprisoned, hanged – anything to shut me up – has left its imprint to the point where I have long honoured my vow of some lifetimes ago, to never speak my truth again – cos it invariably got me killed.

But that was then.

The world is a different place now. Women can speak. Spirituality is mainstream. The power of thoughts has been well-established. In this lifetime I hold myself safe to express.

And so I do, 😊. And this is just the beginning!

So here’s a little backdrop:

In this lifetime I was in my early thirties when something happened that made me reevaluate my understanding of purpose. And I have since been on a quest to understand manifesting. It’s kinda weird, because in the course of that quest I completely changed quadrants – which is an expression I’ll explain in a minute.

The journey I have been on in this lifetime has been one of exploring, questioning, questing.
Being clear-knowing, certain things have always been, well, clear to me. But my conscious mind wasn’t always able to embrace it.
My head had to understand. Just knowing wasn’t enough, I had to also know why, how.
My spiritual peers were eager to equate my hunger for understanding with ego, or even look down upon it as an inferior trait; one should wish to ‘go with the flow, surrender to what is’, and nothing more. “Not everything can be understood,” they said.

I didn’t agree. Also, that concept holds no appeal for me. I want to choose – and I wanted to know that I could.

So I stumbled on the Authority Matrix. Or rather I created it, after I understood there are four quadrants people can be placed in according to their belief system.

The quadrants are based on Passive vs Active Choice and Internal vs External Authority and, depending on when you read this, the article may have been posted somewhere on this website. At the moment of me writing this, early 2024, it is back in my personal library, awaiting an audit.

Short version: when I say I have completely changed quadrants, I mean that I have gone from “Believing God could and would guide me, if I but learned to hear him” (external authority; passive choice) to not believing in any kind of external authority: I believe in deliberate (active) choice – which requires internal authority.

As it happens, when it comes to Authority, most people apply some kind of mix ‘n’ match, where they feel they are in charge, yet they wait for the universe to get its ducks in a row.

Or they set the general direction for something, but then they leave the specifics to the universe, interpreting its output as a sign that tells them whether they should or shouldn’t continue in that direction.

I’m not saying that is good or bad, it’s a belief system. What is bad – in the sense of ineffective – is a mix ‘n’ match. You have to try to be as ‘singular’ as possible, to put all of your eggs in one basket, and not mix systems.

And that’s what I’ve done for me. I have gone from wanting to be in service to god (External, passive) to not believing there is a god. What’s more, I don’t believe the universe has an agenda.

In my quest I’ve touched everything in between, so I know just how deeply rooted certain convictions can be – or how utterly unaware we may be of said convictions. Especially when we don’t realise just how much it matters.

And I’ll be the first to admit: mine is just another belief system; mine is the one that holds true that our thoughts shape our reality – and not just our experience of it, but the actual events in it. But I acknowledge that holding this true is just as arbitrary as it is to hold any other true, whether it contains God, the Universe or nothingness.

At the end of the day all systems are arbitrary. For me, the choice for a system hinges on just one thing: how effective is it? Which means I occasionally even deliberately embrace truths that my head knows are untrue, simply because they work. And if it works, it works! By the same token I deliberately deny things that my head holds true, because my spiritual self reminds me it’s an ineffective truth to nurture. So I focus on a better truth instead. Deliberate Denial, I call that.

Once I arrived at the point where I realised that all systems are arbitrary, which is about 20 years ago, I realised that – for me – holding true that an external god monitored my movements – and punished me for whatever he deemed wrong, without explicitly making his wishes known, seemed so ineffective that from one moment to the next I decided I no longer wanted to hold his existence true. To spend the rest of my life second guessing a deity held no appeal to me.

To eradicate him from my convictions took a lot longer (most of those twenty years! our society is steeped in external belief, fate-beliefs, and superstitions, and as an HSP-empath I just pick up on many of those subconsciously). But in my early fifties I reached the pivot point where ‘the bulk of my thoughts’ was, at last, in one carefully chosen basket. I continue to add ‘the rest of my thoughts’ to that basket as they occur.

I still catch myself with thoughts that don’t belong in my basket, but these days I am quick to recognise them, and then I choose a different thought, a better one, a more effective one.

I won’t pretend it’s simple. It’s been a complex journey. Mostly because all belief systems work. That which we hold true, is what is true for us. And so if you believe in God, God is real for you. That has nothing to do with him existing or not. More to the point, so many people do believe in a higher power, that God is actually as real as Santa Claus: they both have a lot of power over other people – though Santa mostly just over kids; but then, there comes a point where people tell their children that Santa is made up; for God that point typically never arrives, and so people continue to give him their power well into adulthood, or even their entire lives. And I mean that quite literally: god is this powerful because people give him their power; they have expectations in his name; they demand things in his name. He might as well be real, for all the things that are attributed him. He is, indeed, omnipotent. But that doesn’t make him any less man-made than Santa.

Now, this isn’t me taking a dig at anyone’s religion; this is me sharing my perspective: something is real if you hold it true and if you hold god true, then he is real, at least for you. I do not hold him true; I also do not hold true that the universe has a plan for me. It may have. And if you do believe the universe has a plan for you, you can know that plan. I will neither mock you nor try to talk you out of it. But I would have my explanation – and that explanation would serve me, but not necessarily you. Which brings us back to my main premise: that for me a belief has to be effective, because if it isn’t, it’s pointless. And so if something works for you, then why would I want to mess with that? I’m neither a jerk, nor do I need you to believe what I believe.

Having said that, this is my life, and I talk about these things, so if you hang with me while you want your belief in God or the Universe to work for you, then be aware of spoilers. Literally: thoughts I share that to you may sound so reasonable that they actually jeopardise your faith in God, or the universe. So don’t say I didn’t warn you, enter at your own risk, 😉

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