My Triune Nature
I’ve named my three levels of consciousness. It helps me differentiate between them more clearly. We sit down together and I ask them, individually, ‘How are you feeling? What do you need? What do you want to achieve today?’ And then we talk.
And then they contradict each other, cos they don’t necessarily want the same thing.
Deeann, my heart/body, my sensory awareness, is motivated by other things than Cindy, my conscious mind, my intellect. And Hermione, my spiritual aspect, my intuition, is in a league of her own.
They are always ‘in it’ together, it’s not that any part of me is not always aware of the other parts, and they always offer their support. When I need to zone in on what a client needs help with, Deeann is the one who feels into them, but Hermione is right there, connecting with spirit for input. And Cindy is right there helping me connect the dots.
But that doesn’t change the fact that they have different needs and desires – and different ways of dealing with things.
So here’s what that looks like with regards to some of my Life Decisions, in this case: the professional ones.
I’m an HSP-Empath and when people come to me with physical or emotional pain, my healer aspect, Deeann, is immediately triggered and we’ll do what it takes to dissolve that pain. I happen to be very good at this, because – being an extreme empath, I can feel it in my own body – and because I’ve experienced so much pain (that, in hindsight, mostly wasn’t mine) I know how to proceed to bring relief.
Being smart as well as sensitive and intuitive has helped me understand how energy works. And while I obviously can’t massage you from a distance, I can tell you exactly where to massage yourself, because when you touch you, I can still feel into that and guide you. I can also have healing sessions with people online; you don’t have to be in my office, you can just be in your own room and I’ll be in mine and it makes no difference, ‘cos there is no spoon’.
These sessions invariably bring feelings of deep pleasure and fulfilment – and I always want to do more of them, even dedicate my entire practice to them, cos it’s amazing!
Seriously, healing people, making them feel better – it doesn’t get better than that!
Then a friend explains how she’s at odds with a boss or a partner, and while listening to her words, Cindy swings into action and we start unravelling the friend’s belief system, bringing to light those pesky little thoughts that wreak havoc on her relationships.
And before I know it, I really want nothing more than to write the book on how that works! Open up a membership site and help people understand how thoughts affect our experience.
Cindy really can write the book on that! Unravelling belief systems has been her life’s purpose.
Between Deeann’s sensitivity and Cindy’s applied logic, not to mention Hermione’s intuition, I nearly always manage to connect people with their Aha.
And, seriously, helping someone get that aha-moment, it really doesn’t get better than that.
If you’ve ever tried to sell your services as a healer, a therapist or a coach, you’ll have heard some marketing teacher tell you to zone in on just ONE THING. One client. One Offer.
But between Deeann and Cindy I’ve got four things right there: massage therapy, energy healing, belief systems and manifesting. Because Cindy has watched Hermione at work and, being Rational, Logical and Methodical, and having refused to embrace -or even allow!- Hermione’s ‘powers’ until she could understand them, she can now also write the book on manifesting and on how energy works. And she really, really wants to do that.
But here’s the thing. Hermione, my spiritual aspect, doesn’t want to do any of the above!
She does not want to be a professional healer and she does *not* want to sit down and write a book or run a membership site.
She wants to walk her talk, make this her best life ever, follow her purpose, her own inner mission and unravel all there is to unravel.
She wants to sit down with her Council and explore energy, explore life, explore our potential as human beings. And then bring it into the here and now, watch it unfold – and receive. Cos hey, how do you think I manage to be such an amazing healer in the first place. Why do you think I can write the book on belief systems and energy!
I always want to walk my talk, so I figure it out, I seek to understand it, I feel into it and then I implement it, I live it.
Because really, it really doesn’t get better than that.
Wait, didn’t I just say that?
It’s kinda hard to decide how to express yourself, professionally or otherwise, when there’s always two parts of you not agreeing with the third.
What I currently do on any given day really depends on whichever aspect is in charge, but at least they now move in the same direction together. Until last year they most certainly didn’t: before I figured this out, you could see me turning left, no, right. Forward, no, that way. I’m going to do ‘this’. No, I’m not. Oh, I got it, *this* is what I’m going to dedicate my life to. No, I don’t want to do that, I want to do *this*. And that confusion played havoc with me until I realised what was going on.
I have never felt more empowered than I have since separating my consciousness levels into tangible entities.
These days I can ride their waves rather than be floored by their opposing needs. I see who’s in charge at any given moment – and why – and I can assess whether that matches where we’re going as a unity – and what to do to adjust course.
Of course Cindy immediately took it upon herself to figure out the what and the why, so that I can actually share this with you; so that I can take it out of the vagueness into something concrete that can actually help you move forward.
And it’s simple: if you feel that your sensitivity, your spirituality and your intelligence are pulling you in opposite directions, then you’re probably a Triune who needs to learn to balance her three captains.
You will never go in that unequivocal One Direction until you understand who’s in charge. And you’ll never figure out who’s in charge until you familiarise yourself with each of your captains – and until you give each of them the space they need.